Sometimes when I can't sleep I'll wake up the next day to a phone full of saved Pinterest pictures that I don't fully remember looking at or saving. This happens frequently when I'm manic. Today was a whole new level of experience though.
This is just me. Not every bipolar diagnosed person feels these things. I just want to clear the air on some things you might not realize or know about.
Have you ever had a bad ear infection? Mostly this happens when we are children. I am part of those lucky few who still get bad ear infections as an adult. Let me tell you, they're brutal.
This is going to be difficult to write because it's difficult stuff to talk about and my thoughts are all over the place, but here I go. I'm not doing well mentally. Physically I'm doing pretty well. Mentally I'm completely unstable. *CLICK IMAGE FOR FULL BLOG POST*
Most people who have a basic understanding of bipolar disorder understand mania to be a "euphoric" state. This is NOT correct. Yes, sometimes we do feel euphoric and like superheroes that can't die which is super dangerous. But there is so much more to it than that. *CLICK IMAGE FOR FULL BLOG POST*
Thursday, I had what I guess you would call a flare-up of my bipolar, perhaps manic, I'm not completely sure. I woke up extremely irritable. I woke up just not myself at all. I felt like a different person.
When thinking about bipolar symptoms, anger is often overshadowed by mania and depression. I think that this anger or rage isn’t spoken about by people with my disorder much because it feels shameful. The things that happen when I am suddenly having an episode of rage are tough to talk about and embarrassing but if I don’t talk about it who will? *CLICK IMAGE FOR FULL BLOG POST*