I’ve been depressed. Pretty deeply depressed. The kind where I only leave the house to go to work because I can’t even get out of bed. This being said, I haven’t had the energy, motivation, or imagination to write a decent blog post for you guys. I also feel a ton of pressure because my last post was heartfelt and did so well that now I feel like I’ve peaked and anything else I do will just be crap.
Depression is a real thing. It sucks. Big time. I feel a lot of pressure to pretend that I’m doing ok when in reality I’m just making it through each day. I have these things I have to do like go to work. Loki started his training so I have to do my best to be enthusiastic about that. I have a children’s talk at church tomorrow and I have to be happy and bright when my soul is really in this deep dark pit. It’s hard. But at the same time, it is so easy to pretend. I can put on a face and a show and seem completely fine. That is scary to me. It reminds me of Robin Williams. He always had the biggest smile and could make anyone laugh and inside he was dying.
I guess what I’m trying to say here, other than I’m sorry for crap content, is to check on your loved ones. Even if they seem happy and functional on the outside, depression can still be there. So text your best friend, sister, mom, dad, just check on everyone and tell them that you love them. It’s a game changer and you could be helping someone who is suffering.
When I’m depressed, I like to wear my Halloween pajamas and Daisy dressed up in hers with me tonight so here is a happy ending to a depressing post, sorry again.